Sorry it been so long, I've been crazy busy with work and life but I've been on my first holiday abroad! anyway I want to talk about over coming fears and that's something I did going to France with my cousin and his family.
This holiday was a lot of firsts for me. First time abroad, first holiday without my mum, first time on a train ( Eurotunnel ) then there was food. Now I didn't think I was that much of a fusses eater but it turns out I am!
I have anxiety and in day to day life i have learn to hide or have some kind of control over it but being on holiday was completely different. It did get little easier but the people who I went away with didn't know anything about it which looking back probably wasn't the best idea but i didn't what it to stop me going that why i said yes to going. So not only did i have that to deal with, i wasnt really that close with the family i went with and then on top of that i wasn't in the UK where i couldnt use my phone all the time and i thought that would be a good thing but i felt so lost without so i paid to use it, that being said i wasn't on it half as much as i do at home.
I live 2ish hours from my cousin so we met up half way, My sister and her husband drove me down and I was really quiet in the car. I was just thinking I hope i don't have a big freak out when i change cars and go to my cousins house. Lucky i didn't i kept it under control, i felt so sick when i swapped cars. It just felt so weird and proud at same time. I felt proud that I had actually got that far and there was no going back, i didn't chicken out and it felt weird because I've never really spend more than 3 days with them and now i going to spend 10 days with them!
The first few days were hard because i didn't really know what to expect, we have to get up at 3am to lave the house by half 3. so i wasn't really with it so i just got dressed and got in the car and went back to sleep. it was the 3rd or 4th day when started to relax a lot more, which looking back i wish it hadn't taken me so long but hey ho that's just me and i when i go again I'm sure it wont take as long. It was really good break that I needed and they didnt let me wear make up which i hated but i knew it was worth because i was on holiday and no one knew me so i should let me skin breath which I do thank them for as my skin does feel a lot better. I did have a few moments of panic but no one notice which I so glad about i don't like people fussing.
I have anxiety and in day to day life i have learn to hide or have some kind of control over it but being on holiday was completely different. It did get little easier but the people who I went away with didn't know anything about it which looking back probably wasn't the best idea but i didn't what it to stop me going that why i said yes to going. So not only did i have that to deal with, i wasnt really that close with the family i went with and then on top of that i wasn't in the UK where i couldnt use my phone all the time and i thought that would be a good thing but i felt so lost without so i paid to use it, that being said i wasn't on it half as much as i do at home.
I live 2ish hours from my cousin so we met up half way, My sister and her husband drove me down and I was really quiet in the car. I was just thinking I hope i don't have a big freak out when i change cars and go to my cousins house. Lucky i didn't i kept it under control, i felt so sick when i swapped cars. It just felt so weird and proud at same time. I felt proud that I had actually got that far and there was no going back, i didn't chicken out and it felt weird because I've never really spend more than 3 days with them and now i going to spend 10 days with them!
The first few days were hard because i didn't really know what to expect, we have to get up at 3am to lave the house by half 3. so i wasn't really with it so i just got dressed and got in the car and went back to sleep. it was the 3rd or 4th day when started to relax a lot more, which looking back i wish it hadn't taken me so long but hey ho that's just me and i when i go again I'm sure it wont take as long. It was really good break that I needed and they didnt let me wear make up which i hated but i knew it was worth because i was on holiday and no one knew me so i should let me skin breath which I do thank them for as my skin does feel a lot better. I did have a few moments of panic but no one notice which I so glad about i don't like people fussing.
Although it was a great holiday full of new experiences, I was glad to come home but I didn't come straight home I started at there for 3 nights then went home.
I'm proud of myself for going and if your like me and have anxiety try and say yes to something you wouldn't do normally, even if it's a little thing it will make you feel better!
Thanks for reading and I promise it won't be so long before I post again.
Have a good day
Meg X
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